i just read some of earlier posts and i realised i was so damn friggin corny last time.

nope im all grown up and less corny now. seriously!

i can tell nobody believes me but thats alright. i'll just go cry in one korner.

this one week block leave just before taiwan has switched me to ord mode. its gonna be so hard to go back to combat mode man. im done with ns. enough liao la. ORD PLS. I DONT WANT TO GO BACCKKKK. noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

civilians lead such wonderful lives.

and im starting to hate watching movies and reality shows. they paint the perfect picture. they put each of ur dreams into action just to give you a little glimmer of hope. a small sense that all that can actually be achieved. but we all know that most of us will just grow up to be another nondescript person. living a normal live. with our wildest dreams nvr fulfilled. and watching these shows just make it more painful becuase they are some lucky buggers out there who have actually living your dream. and these shows just tell you that its possible for draems to come true but just not for you.

mighty depressing post. no idea why. i used to be one of those people who would say hey its possible if you work hard enough. if you put your all to it. but i guess im just losing that kind of optimism.

which isnt good man. i'll find it back.

and hopefully that little optimism i just displayed with the above sentence doesnt disappear liek the rest of it did.

dang man. life has gotta be a little more interesting. so boreddd at home.

bah. lets see how long it takes for someone to realise there are still updates. hahahha probably never ah.